I've been well aware of my increasing times, decreasing speed for awhile now, but with a lack of direction, ( and ya know, good eating habits and all the jazz) it occurs to me that I desperately need a plan.
I remember hearing and seeing for eons about 'signing up for a race will motivate and scare you into doing what you need to do'. Is that what I need?
This is somewhat familiar territory for me, as after my first 5k, I seriously had no idea what to do next. Work on speed? Work on running the full thing? Work on increased mileage?
I opted for increased mileage and did just that, all the way to the Half Marathon a year ago, but now, I don't even know what I want. There's a large part of me that hates running with a passion, there's also a big part of me that loves it, because I know exactly how freakin' hard it is, and it prides me to be able to say ' I did that'.
I am forever wondering why I do it. Maybe that's the problem. Why ask why, anyway? Does it really matter?
Okay, so let me pretend that a big race is exactly what's needed. I'm not ready to even consider a full marathon. Nope, not yet. Another half, perhaps. But with summer and hotter than hell weather coming up, I'm not sure about that either. The trouble is, I have no idea what I want. At all.
Why, What, Where, When, Who.....the list of never ending questions is making me batty.
In the end, what does it really come down to, anyway?
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